Sunday, March 14, 2010

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Torn

The question of what path to take came up in our lesson today. I'm so torn. I like most of what they say, but, some of what Chabad said made a lot of sense to me too. Then again a lot didn't. A lot of it was the things that drove me away from Judaism. Some of what they say bothers me too. How do I choose?

We're all connected

According to Kabbalah we are all connected. We are all part of a single vessel that shattered and we ended up here to learn how to receive in order to bestow. But we can't do it alone, we need other people to help us.

In the last century there has been an awakening of humanity. We are suddenly starting to realize that we are all connected and need each other. What happened in Haiti and Chili could happen here today. We need each other. Could that be in part because Kabbalah was opened to the public in the last century, more souls have gone through partial "tikkun", and come back with that idea already ingrained in them?

Sunday, March 7, 2010

Chabad Part II

It was a very interesting meeting.

As I expected he does not agree with a lot of what Rav Laitman says. We hashed out a few things, he gave me some candles for Shabbat, asked me to sign up for his weekly news letter and said he'd like to meet with me again. and that it was a very meaningful conversation.He actually tried to cancel at the last minute and later admitted that he was very skeptical about meeting with me. I really surprised him. I deliberately didn't tell him what I wanted to talk about or who I actually was. I wanted it to be a spontaneous conversation.

One thing he did clear up for me is that I should finish my degree and let the serious Kabbalah study wait until after I'm done with that.

All in all I'd say it went well and it was one more step in the direction of reconnecting with my roots.

Chabad Part I

They tell us to explore other venues we might be interested in because it's important to be with the right teacher and the right group. Considering my background and family history I made an appointment to meet with the Chabad Rabbi in Santa Fe and ask him some questions.

I don't know why but I feel like I owe this to my grandfather.